Time4Change

Months ago , when I joined Buddyslim, I told myself that losing weight for the summer beach trip would be a big motivator. Well, that time has just come and gone. And my weight loss was not as significant as I hoped. Honestly, it was dissappointing.

I think I need to put this vanity aside. I should be concentrating on gradual loss, on being healthier with each pound lost. But I can’t help but be a bit discouraged. Anyway, I do find hope in reading the other blogs. And the positive feedback. I can’t and won’t give up. Thanks for being there.

I knew it was time to be honest with myself and step on that scale. I have been distracted recently and too relaxed in my diet. So it is time to face facts - three pound gain last week. My big excuse, for the last three months (since knee surgery) I haven’t been able to exercize as I used to. But now I have approval from the physical therapist to gradually work in an exercize program more like I was accustomed - big excuse, gone. Actually, I ‘ve been inspired by the postings of those of you on BuddySlim (i.e. Veronica). Time for me to get back to work.

I am a firm believer of self-acceptance. I feel good (relatively) and try to always be positive. But last night, I was downloading pictures from the digital camera and came across the family pictures from my son’s recent high school graduation. I didn’t like what I saw. Everyone else looked great. But my self image and the one of me in that picture were quite different. (I know why I prefer to be behind the camera.) I have some work to do. But -HEY. That’s why I’m here.  I can’t waiver from the goal - to be healthier.

Even resorting to eating a salad with a spoon will not dissuade me from my purpose.  Actually, I’m the laziest luch preparer.  Lunch salad consists of a handful of romaine lettuce with several chopped slices of deli ham. Dressing? I love the new Wishbone Spritzers. So, I forgot a fork. And a spoon is the only thing to be found at work. Anyway.  I’m doing well with the three meals. But evening snacking is a problem. Too much junk in the house. And I know where my wife hides it all!  There is said it - or wrote it. Now I must deal with it.

I was doing so well. Then knee surgery a month ago. I starting to move around but I was so frustrated with my recent lack of diet discipline and no exercize. the good news. I guess, is that I only gained 4 pounds in the last month. But I was 1 pound away from my first mini-goal. Time to take control again. Time to kick some “carb” butt.

Knee surgery nearly a week ago. Hobbling from room to room. Finally made it to the computer. Thanks to the wife, my diet is somewhat on track. I worried, by not faithfully logging all I eat, I would “conveniently” forget those extra snacks or double (triple?) portions. I’m usually very active. So being limited, it’s easy to fall back on the comfort of food. But I’m feeling stronger and I’m glad. I’d hate to fall so far back. Thanks for being there.

Blew out my knee last weekend. Surgery tomorrow. Won’t be very active for a while. I was just settling in on a treadmill routine, too. Now I really have to focus on diet alone. I do so much better when I’m busy. Any ideas?

I’m almost one month into the diet. I’ve surprised myself as to how much self-control I’ve been able to muster. But lately, I’ve been craving carbs and sneak eating before bed. The double whammy! I think if I admit this in the open I will regain control. I don’t want to slide back to the bad habits.

Today’s weigh-in left me with only one more pound to my mini-goal. Thanks to you, I wasn’t discourage by not having any loss last week. Overall, I have never lost weight this quickly. But I know it will slow down significantly. Thanks to everyone, whether you know it or not. Your blogs give me focus in my own fight. Again, thanks.

Everywhere I turn, I’m being tested. Someone brought free chocolates to work today. Fast food at every turn as I drive to assignments. And there’s so much junk food in the house. Sure, it’s for the kid’s to munch on. But sometimes, at the end of the evening when everyone has gone to bed, it calls to me. (Not really.) And guess what, my wife just made cupcakes for the boys to take to school.

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I will persevere. (Where’s the carrots?)